so i was writing up my GIP reflections and i started becoming all reminiscent and sentimental and stuff..

i'm proud to have graduated a more loyal sporean - proud of singlish, proud of our food, proud of being more modern than most other asian countries. and i'm glad that i got to travel THE WORLD.. haha well not literally, just europe.. glad to learn the language better, and of course glad to have made all these wonderful and most unforgettable friends. :)

but back in spore and staying at home really makes it seem like it was such a long time ago. the responsibilities of a daughter, student, partner and party-er :P
ok i'm talking reality and unfiltered emotion here, so don't get offended.
chris-gramps relationship: my granny prob has alzheimer's disease and has a very holey memory. she can't remember whether she's eaten or where she's put her stuff. she takes my toothbrush and i tell her that it's mine then after that she uses it again. i'm like kissing my granny man. so i let her have it and get another brush for myself, and she goes and uses it again! i, or for that matter, everyone in the house, can't seem to find many things as well, from jewellery to letters.......
granny-dad relationship: i'm fine with the elderly but problem is she gets on my dad's nerves. my dad is not doing too well with his parkinson's and it frustrates him. so he's short on his circuit and gramps sets it on fire by her constant nagging. furthermore, dad's retired and faces her 24/7, i can understand his frustrations. so when dad goes downstairs, he orders her to go upstairs. it was like this for some time but they're getting better now.
chris-dad relationship: i understand dad's frustrations bout his health so i try to be home to help him and accompany him. but he is my dad, he's one of a kind, he's got a character nobody can imagine. he wants to be in charge of everything, in control, even in his condition. he wants his old lifestyle of stocking up on books/stationary but he can't even stand up for long to shop. he wants to make sure the petrol tank is always full.
on the 1st day of sch, class started at 0930h, he wanted me to leave at 8, saying that i'm already late. worrying and worrying. fact is journey only takes 1h max. but how wld he know, he doesn't take public transport. so cos he stayed awake so long and early to shoo me to sch, his legs gave him problem the whole day after that. of course he complained "if only you listened to me.." so he insisted that i drive to sch, but i'd have to wake up even earlier to send my mom and bro to work and rush down after class to pick up my mom. and i'd have to be sensitive to whether my dad wants to be driven to places and make arrangements for that. and all that's on top of sch work. and recently, he wanted my timetable, but i wanted my freedom to pon class, so i didn't wanna give him so he sms-ed me "can i go down on my knees for your timetable?" omg. all his whims and fancies and emotional threats. so many such situations everyday.
chris-bro relationship: this bro that's left is the temperamental one. his temper is horrid. but he doesn't ever admit to that. i'm really concerned bout why, is it cos he doesn't get enough love from the family? is it cos he doesn't have a gf? i drive him to work and when i get just a lil too close to the car in front, he shouts, "i told you not to follow too close!!!!!!!!!" then i'll say in a patient and soft tone, "ok. do you want to drive instead?" and he screams,"don't talk back to me!!" omg..so anal. is he trying to be a gd older bro? in all ways, i can't ever hold a proper conversation with him. i can't argue with him, cos he'll just shout back ridiculous answers. i can't frown or be impatient. i can't be myself. but look on the bright side, he's really gd for my anger management.
and so obviously, if he can't talk to me properly, he can't talk to dad properly. so he is never at home and doesn't take care of slow dad or forgetful gramps. he doesn't know dad's situation at all, what he needs to do, in which way is the best and how difficult it can get.
chris-mom relationship: i love and admire my mom, so i felt so bad when my mom told me to "better concentrate" on my studies this semester cos i don't wanna "disappoint them" again. man, so saddening.
chris-baby relationship: so all these pent-up frustrations and emotions and expectations have to get out somewhere. and it all goes to him..poor guy. always gets the worse of my mood swings, the brunt of my sarcasm, the unreasonable requests. and he still stays by my side and never stops loving me and being patient with me. :)

see why the stint in france suddenly seems so far away. sigh.