spiritual attacks in all sorts of ways. from nightmares. to unrestful nights. to waking up with all sorts of thoughts racing thru my head. to helplessness. to stoning and not wanting to do anything. and latest to the list, thoughts of disappointment in God, blaming Him and giving up on Him. and it attacked me just before service. why i claim and stand on His promises and yet i don't feel things are getting better. I REBUKE THEM!
Lam 3:22-23 "Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness." I am not supposed to be consumed! but i've just become so inward looking. i don't wanna do anything.
2 Cor 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you for My strength is made perfect in weakness.." altho i did feel that the interview went wonderfully, i just have this nagging feeling at the back of my head that i won't make it through. altho i felt that my first few exams went smoothly, the others just weigh me down.
and for all the time i have in the world right now, i can do so much to help the cg, to bring everyone back. but i have no push and no will to do it. neither do i have the will to do my fyp.