really tired and heavy hearted. emotionally n mentally..
i dunno what to think, how to act and how i shd feel, dunno whether i have the right to or not.
caught in the middle.

j'ai pensé que j'allais etre dans le ciel mais..
je n'arrive pas lui dire les trois mots, je n'arrive pas lui carinho..
pourquoi!
je ne me sens pas la joie..
j'ai besoin de Toi, Jésus..
et avec Toi, je ferrai très bien dans les examens, i will.


i love The Cranberries..looove them.


Oh, my life is changing everyday,
In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams, it's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before,
but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

I want more impossible to ignore,
Impossible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;
You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,
Is changing every day,
In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams,
It's never quiet as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

3 couples + beer + whisky + dark room..

i seriously didn't expect anything to happen! i swear! -grin- sorry if anything did and you up the list to 3. muahahah.

anyway i'm so happy i'm the 2nd longest! hehee. heeeheee. hehehehheheheheheheheheh. i win i win i win i win. i'm happy now. yupp i'd rather leave a better impression. tho it was so hard, is so hard, gonna be so hard.. :*( neverland ended. peterpan morphed. wendy is no more. and brasians ont tué with a pill. shhhhh.

alorsssss i can start studying now. hahah. anyway registration was pretty shitted. hope i can grad in time! :(

this is how passionnate they can get. brazil vs aussie. 40+ pple squeezing in one room. hot sia.

i will miss all of you!! :(

and ari came as a surprise! so sweet.

a flurry of emotion and disillusionment.

the rain beat down fiercely on the roof of the bus, making a huge racket. out on the road, i could see the white mist made by the continuous merciless pelts of droplets rebounding off. it was truly the type of rain only the tropics would get - convectional rain with yet, warm wet air of 98% humidity.

i was on my way to service my ailing computer, although it was only 6 mths old. i got off the bus and prepared to battle the storm with my humble little umbrella. "wrong choice of outfit," i thought to myself, glancing at my slippers and shorts. i inched out of the bus shelter testing the conditions, only to find out that i would definitely get wet with umbrella or not. anyhow, i was glad that i brought it along thanks to insider information.

next feat i had to do was to cross the busy jurong east rd. i reached the middle divider with ease, having learnt the art of jay-walking since a young age of 9 thx to having older brothers. the breeze was a nice welcome, in place of the sun and i was feeling pretty. at the corner of my eye, i saw a speeding cargo truck coming near but i didn't think anything of it, until................*splash* IT BLOODY DROVE THROUGH AND SPLASHED DRAIN WATER ALL OVER MY RIGHT SIDE, FACE AND BODY. urghhh! what a $%@&#!! now i really looked like a damsel in distress in the middle of the rd, holding a laptop in one hand and my bag and umbrella in the other. furthermore, my slippers were kicking up mud every step i walked till my whole calf was dotted with soil. man..............

and when it was my turn for the repairs, the computer guy told me "your touchpad is perfectly ok. just press Fn+F7." OMG!!!!! DID ANYONE KNOW THAT FN+F7 LOCKS THE TOUCHPAD???!!? man...............

what a day. the 6th day of the 6th mth of the 6th yr of the 21st century. the day 'The Omen' is to open. what a day.

and soo, my lappie's not spoilt and i've got newfound wealth. i've my cam left to fix.

short stint back home

ate chicken wings and carrot cake and kaya fondue and roti prata and spring rolls and shark's fin and ben's and jerry's. tho i got back my sinus problems and skin rash. crap the weather. but guess why! cos i'm back home!! for just an ephemeral 9 days.

it's good to be behind the wheel on the right hand side, driving on the left side of the road and at 110km/h on a 70km/h road. it's good to be able to jump into the swimming pool and feel shiok. it's good to dress up for a dinner and shake everybody's hand like you're VIP. it's great to be able to satisfy my longing for home and yet still be able to get back to amazing compiegne to be with amazing pple. although finals are in <3wks.

well can't imagine my bro has settled down, prob will only sink in when "little peters and little dianas" start crying and kicking and making a mess and pooing all over the place. hehee. home has changed a lil, new pipings and shower heads, new bed, different orientations of things but looking more and more like a warehouse with each passing glance. :( gotta do major spring cleaning man.

and well thx for seeing me thru happy times, challenging times, exams, hospitals, deaths, marriages, times apart, disagreements, my unreasonable-ness and impatience..only you will know..