sighh no words of encouragement from you baby?

pas mal, ma première soirée par whosgoing.sg à MOS..
il faut donner daming des "visages" si tu sais ce que je veuille dire haha.







heehee don't we all love whosgoing?
that top has seen me through my first clubbing experience till now..haha.
i love the macallan picture. the effect, the shadows, the carrot and cucumber sticks. that is en lounge.

shit i gotta get this out of my head.

Chaque Seconde by Kyo
j'ai cherché l'erreur
au coeur des systèmes,
ce qui brille est un leurre
ce qui brille peut fondre au soleil.

j'ai cherché l'erreur
qui trouble mon sommeil,
j'ai cherché pendant des heures
pour voir que tout est à refaire,
enfin tout est clair,
je relève la tete.

je veux vivre chaque seconde
comme si demain était la fin du monde,
etre libre pour de bon,
a trop vouloir se lever on tombe.

abandonner la fièvre,
ne plus regarder en arrière,
trouver l'essentiel
pour enfin oublier le reste.

je ne veux plus d'adresse,
je ne veux plus au'en vain on se blesse,
je voudrais pouvoir éclore
et demain sourire encore.

en fait tout est clair,
je relève la tete.

there came a point of time when i stopped questioning,when i accepted things as they were.

until someone comes along and tells me bout his père and how he looks up to him and how he learns from him. how he does big impt jobs and commands respect. how he can ask him for advice and joke bout life. or how frères and soeurs share their lives. they come complaining bout their familles and...
i dunno watta say. hope it's not self-pity that i always think mine's worse. when they talk, i look at myself, not knowing whether telling them wld console them or just bring the focus on me. whether i shd tell them my dirty laundry. so i just shut up and pretend to know wat they are talking about. i don't even feel sad anymore. it's just fine, look.









i do have confidence that i'll be someone great in the future, with Father on my side. but when pple ask exactly bout wat i wanna do, how can i map out everything that is so uncertain? i wanna do business, but how can i do it when i don't know what the market needs? so it's gotta wait till after yrs of work experience. i wanna go into petroleum, but how wld i know whether i'd like it or have a flare for it or know exactly wat to do in the industry. i wanna go into the banks, but then so does everybody else. how can i detail out my future when there're just so many branches in the tree that right now, seem to be healthy and growing. at least i do know wat i somewhat wanna do, right? that's like way better than many, right?

i dunno watta expect, wat else is there to say on a conversation rite? for now, i guess superficials will hafta suffice. but it's so sickening to me, there is only like a handful of pple that i'm downright comfortable with, no pretenses, no forced smiles, no need to be a duck in water searching for topics and i've lost the most impt one. true, i've come to gain a few more but it does take time esp when i'm so melancholic at this pt of time. i hate to admit it, but yep, i'm a moper. oh GOd help me know my worth and talents and live that abundant life you have in store for me.

not that my life lacks anything. i'm so blessed with wonderful frens like..
my pokkai-ed bsb peeps, i was not ashamed to go anywhere with you for the last 11 yrs and won't quit playing games with your black and blue hearts!
hug! pig! enjoy your year!





fat arms :(

9 years of soe-ing :) now we're fellow francophiles.







and yes, it's been 8 yrs too. and i've definitely left my mark.
omg i've just gotta complain..why do the pple ard me have lil sistas that they dote on! pout.







btw notice my new hair?? grinz.

RE-HI dahhling blog!

i loove my life now haha, i've been booked solid for the past 2 wks..havoc man.
paulaner sentosa waraku movies secret recipe st james en lounge
yeah en lounge, new hangout place...somebody's fave place cos it's not 'atas'.
oh wells, not all gd and fun tho.
christine won't pretend to be who she's not.
christine will give snooty nose to shallow kids.
watever.

look so pretty today, just had to zi lian abit heh

my pals!
thx in advance for
6 months of
companionship!

nice creperie at duxton..
my french indulgences.
happy Bastille day!

pema's back!! haha hugs. great replacement for another who's gone and left me alone pout.