being exposed to this whole new world, i feel even more burdened and saddened for them. they are stuck in the own little circle, perched on top and looking down at who they term as "peasants". when you are up there, isn't there all the more a need to understand and experience the lives that pple who are not as fortunate lead, to know how pple outside your circle are? for wannabe-socialites, wat is the point of PR-ing so much when you are treated only like an accessory and not an asset? wat is the point when PR-ing only yields weather talk and not substantial conversation? networking is all about wat you can offer to others, not wat your rich-relatives-and-by-default-you can offer. and so partying is a means to get by that, of getting seen with The Right Pple but if you've got wat it takes, The Right Pple will know you, ain't it. saddening that the only way of letting loose they know is to get drunk. today i enjoyed a refreshing kampong experience, i enjoyed the times talking to Gang Head, First Class, Sporty etc. maybe these pple feel inadequate mixing with different types of pple cos they always wanna feel like they know everything? i don't know.

on to a different issue, singaporeans are born complainers huh. food must be fed to them. love served on a platter to them but even then they reject it. wat is church for? not for its pple but for God, to serve Him, to love Him. if Man doesn't treat you right, who cares, you live for God, not for Man. you do wat you think is right in God's eyes, not on condition that Man treats you well (or wat you perceive as well). Man gets jaded easily, God doesn't. after a few times of unanswered sms-es, realise that it is possible and almost sure that Man will get jaded. once bitten twice shy. how wld you expect to get fed if you're not receptive, if your attitude is not right, if you rely on Man's actions and not your love for God? saying that, i am not perfect..no human is. i need forgiveness from whoever i've wronged. and i need pple to teach me how to do things right. if everything is kept inside, without open communication, there will always be misunderstandings that never get SOLVED. i don't like situations that are forced, i like to go with the flow, i don't like to act spiritually-superior than others, i believe there is always things i can learn from pple that are supposedly lower than me, i believe that we are all peers. don't wait for pple to act, you'd be waiting your whole life and getting very bitter while at it. take INITIATIVE!