i question when pple say opposites attract. how long will the intrigue/bewilderment last when communication is already so difficult with someone so similar.

i got the msg right long time ago when the church talked about launching out into the deep..go out into society and be fishers of men. but then it is true when pst said that crossing over is not for the faint hearted, and it leaves most lost. they crossed over but forgot to bring the cross over. in the end, bringing God to shame and hurting the pple ard them. and well i'm talking about me and my "projects".

but hey it's not too late. it came to me as a revelation today: everytime i feel lousy about my abilities, i know His glory shall be made full because i'm weak, cos it's not by my strength. but it's hard not to compare cos i know i'm equally as capable as they are but yet.... sure i know there are pple worse off than i am, but why do i want to compare with them. but hey everything happens for a reason.

today was full of classic bimbo moments. grinz.

comp lab's monitors and cpus are arranged systematically and at equal intervals. was doing hysys on a comp and wanted to save my work so i plugged in my thumbdrive into the cpu nearest to me. wondering why the screen didn't register my thumb, so i jammed it in again. you know how the electronics ard me always seem not to work esp usb ports. and that was when dearest zhiyu burst out laughing and pointed to the cpu on the other side..

AND then, after bathing, i discovered that i didn't empty my waste contact solution in the case..so i poured it away and washed the case out. then i poured fresh solution in, sticking my fingers into my eye to take the plastics out..it was then i realised and remembered that i wore specs the whole day today. well, i had emptied and drained those contacts into the sink already. -.-

anyway, svc brought me back to where i was. it seems so long ago when i was so passionate. when life had a bigger purpose. look at chc..we're doing so much for pple all around. i'm too engrossed with such transient things. wat importance is love and pursuit.

remember when you said that you don't wanna find anyone else already? when you said that you were tired of finding anyone new? you just got tired of the whole game..but i guess this is where i differ and explains the decisions/actions that i make. it just makes me feel so lousy about my character but this is just me. and this was you a few years ago.
but you know how i need you. only you know how weak i am, how unconfident i am of myself, how i deal with stress and problems.

rappellez-moi, "Je te connaissais avant meme de t'avoir formé dans le ventre de ta mère...Je sais bien quels projets je forme pour vous; et Je vous l'affirme: ce ne sont pas des projets de malheur mais des projets de bonheur. Je veux vous donner un avenir à espérer."

anyway i was watching the life story of Christian Dior on Krisworld and it seems that there are many stories of successful men who are very traditional and also a little eccentric in their ways. It formed the character of his designs and probably cos of that, enhanced his business strategy. it ain't that bad being traditional after all.