i was just discussing with someone about my views and all he could muster was faithfulness till marriage. my reply wld sound familiar..i am a woman of principles, i live by them even tho they may be warped. even tho better options may present themselves to me, monetarily or smarts wise, i wld never jump ship. that's wat i deem as faithfulness.

crazy about vienna teng!!

You are faithful
Your joy is my strength

i've never seen or experienced love like that before
was neither kin nor God and yet
such a treasure to be lost again

i still love you with my all and try as i might, i'm just unable to take back my heart. but i respect your decision. go, explore, discover yourself. :) thx for this honeymoon.

belachan is bad, really bad for stamina. :( my flavouring of choice. my nasi lemak mixed belachan :( nvm all for my goal of 42km next yr.

right after my dose of belachan, i cld only manage a meager 5.2km. so made up for it by doing 30 laps in the pool. good stuff. i like my new regime. so you'd know, it comes naturally and i like it. change wasn't precipitated and certainly isn't forced. independence. i'm satisfied being by myself. waiting for you. hoping. right here. your picture, our pictures, keep me going. if i only cld be as happy as the person in the pictures again.

spiritual attacks in all sorts of ways. from nightmares. to unrestful nights. to waking up with all sorts of thoughts racing thru my head. to helplessness. to stoning and not wanting to do anything. and latest to the list, thoughts of disappointment in God, blaming Him and giving up on Him. and it attacked me just before service. why i claim and stand on His promises and yet i don't feel things are getting better. I REBUKE THEM!
Lam 3:22-23 "Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness." I am not supposed to be consumed! but i've just become so inward looking. i don't wanna do anything.
2 Cor 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you for My strength is made perfect in weakness.." altho i did feel that the interview went wonderfully, i just have this nagging feeling at the back of my head that i won't make it through. altho i felt that my first few exams went smoothly, the others just weigh me down.
and for all the time i have in the world right now, i can do so much to help the cg, to bring everyone back. but i have no push and no will to do it. neither do i have the will to do my fyp.